why wasnt i allowed to be a spoilt child?why wasnt i comforted when i cried but instead was asked to shut up?why was i always the one to be matured when i was the youngest?why could'nt i be known as the spoilt child next door instead of the mature kid next door?why did i have to stop crying when they told me so?why is my place in my 'family' never known to others?why am i always the one who is 'only is sec1'?why did i never have attention diverted to me?why did i have to strive for thing so hard yet only a seconds' worth of attention then forgotten?why am i the one that had no attention at all?why am i pushed to the limit yet asked for more when i reached it?just because 'its not good enough'why couldnt never be noticed?why was i never to spill out my real feelings?why was i always the one keeping secrets so others wouldnt be dishonoured?why was i always the one asked to keep my feelings unknown?why was i never LOVED?why?!

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